Looking back from the perspective I’m in now I realize it never mattered
The petty fights and losing our voices after hours of screaming
I should’ve just let you go but I didn’t think I was capable of living without you
I realize how wrong I was
You never deserved me
You never deserved anyone
All the hate you built up inside you
You never loved me
You just wanted to share the burden of your blackened heart with someone
I didn’t realize love and pain didn’t have to come hand in hand
I always thought love came with pain for me because I felt everything too deeply
But I realize now it’s because I refused to ever feel anything true
Because I feared being hurt
But in the process of trying to avoid pain, It was the only thing that came to me
70 years later nature has taken its course
I’m gone from the world with nothing to leave behind
Except the pain is now for someone else to bear
